Monday, December 6, 2010

Emotionally Unhinged

I have to admit something, I am a hormonal basket case right now.

I can honestly not count how many times that My Husband has ask my why I am crying this pregnancy, only for me to sob in response, "I don't know".  When I answer that, I really don't.

I can feel the tears start, and in my head, I realize that I shouldn't be crying, but I can't do anything about it.  Something simple will catch me off guard, and just like that, I will be a blubbering ball of mush for all the world to  see and have concern about.

It is correct to be concerned, too.  I could break down on any one, at any time.

The Big One's teacher must have thought I was a total nut job until he found out I was pregnant.  He very kindly stayed after class one day top go over class room policies and stuff as I couldn't attend the open house the night before.  In the midst of it all, I just started welling up.  I couldn't do anything about it.  I tried to play it off, and I think he was happy to let me try, but we both knew I was crying for no real reason.  Thankfully, he knows I am pregnant now, and when I start to get teary, he understands just to ignore the instant insanity that is the pregnant and hormonal woman.  I believe he has a wife and children, there for he gets it.

If only there was some way to notify, or warn the rest of the world, who probably can't tell if I am just getting fatter or pregnant yet.  I could wear a shirt that says "emotionally unhinged", but that could lead to a whole different set of problems.  I guess the best bet is just to carry lots of tissues, and be prepared to sob "I'm soorrryy.  I'm just pregnant" any time necessary.

So, if you know me, for the next few months, please be prepared to completely ignore my irrational outbursts.  I promise to try to go back to being a rather nice, and balanced person just as soon as possible.  Say in a few years.